I'm so FRUSTRATED!!! I hate looking for jobs! My city is too small!! Yes, I'm super blessed to work for the school during the school year but can I please stop working for almost FREE! It a great job but I make no money and it's only 24 hours a week. Now it's summer and school is out.
Today I went to the restaurant that I worked in last summer. I didn't love working there....always drama and I always got crap for needing time off/ or I wouldn't get the days I needed off. Well I have been putting off going back there since I kinda got dissed by the Owner....long story which brings up too much anger! Anyways, I went there today just because we need MONEY! I talked to the owner and well i just got a negative feeling. Like when I worked there last summer I was always coming home frustrated and such just because of some or maybe one co-worker who just made it impossible to work with. She did everything perfect and everyone else was nothing...which was so not the case. I even had some full on yelling fights with her......so not the person I want to be. Yes, she was very difficult to work with but she still was a good person. She just made the work environment impossible..... and I'm not perfect. I could of handled every situation in a better way.
Back to today.....we talked and she said her problem last summer was always having to work around my schedule. Which I totally understand where she is coming from. Direct quote " I shouldn't have to work around your schedule, you should have to work around the restaurants schedule. This is a great place to work and you can make a lot of money here". That is when I thought.....NO I just thought! I want to live my life the way I want and not live my life for a restaurant. I'm sorry if this is the wrong way to think and maybe that's why I can't find a job. I thinks its the other way around. Work around your life...yes we need money to live but I don't want it to be my life. I guess we really don't need money that bad!
In college...working was my life. I worked every weekend. I missed out on so many fun things....roommate hang outs, parties, dates and other funcitions becuase I was working all the time to get my way through college so I wouldn't have to be a server the rest of my life and scedule my life around a restaurant. I'm not sure if this is the mind set to have but it truly is how I think.
I want to spend the weekend hanging out with my hubby and playing in this beatuful place that we live in. I want to have lost of fun with him when he's off work. I want to work super hard during the week just like Ster and then enjoy my time with him and our life together. However, instead its the oppiste, to make money I need to work weeknights while Ster is off work and work weekends which is dedicated FUN time.
I'm just torn. Should I be a responsible adult and work when ever I can or should I do what I want with my life and leave the drama out of my life! I vote leave it! Mer....ha
This post also makes me think about my dream....yes, I want to be a photographer. Most of that will go on in the evening and weddings are most likely on weekends. I guess I'll just have to deal with that when it comes my way and at least I'll LOVE it!
PS- Fun summer update on my trip to Ohio and Moab to come
|Who wants to work when you can do this!|
|No work ...all play I want more|
|Really work or Mt biking....not a tough call|
|SUMMER + SUN + HUBBY + FAMILY + OUT DOORS = |